When I was young I remember always feeling like an alien to this world. I felt like I was just pretending to be human. I was always looking outward to other people's reactions to figure out how I should be feeling.
Should is a dangerous word. I should have this kind of job. I should be making this much money. I should major in this. I should be more focused. I should be more like my sister.
Should will often put me in a comparison mindset. And that is always a lose / lose game.
Anyways, I've always felt like I should feel understood. But I don't. Even as an adult with an understanding wife and an amazingly imaginative kid, I feel like nobody understands me some days.
In part it is because growing up, feeling like an alien, I felt that I shouldn't express my weird point of view. Especially because I was easily hurt when I tried and people still didn't get it.
So I felt like I had to stand back and observe people being people.
But here's the truth.
I can't stand back and watch anymore.
It's not fair to the people who are trying to understand me.
I'm no longer a kid.
I don't need to be so guarded.
I will probably always have a whisper in my head that says, "nobody understands me." That's okay.
What's more important to me is that I open up to the people who have truly earned my trust.
Because I want to understand them better.
Because being loved is nice, but being understood is life defining.
I want to challenge you to reflect on any old armor that doesn't fit in your life anymore.
Is there anyone in your life who has more than earned your trust and you aren't opening up to?
Johnny Magz is a public speaker, health coach, INFJ, recovering perfectionist, and proud dad. He loves to share stories about health, self development, and comedy.